Creativity

 

There is an hour in the early morning when every beast in Burkina Faso takes to howling. The noise is deep, cacophonous, and urgent. It is the braying of donkeys and the wailing of dogs on top of a chorus of goats and the jealous shrieking of roosters. Pigs join in for good measure, and so do the birds, all participating in an unconventional harmony that rouses a lazy yellow sun from over the Solenzo’s Lycee. 

I wake up during this hour, for no other reason than because I feel guilty letting two full hours of moderate weather go to waste. Moments after I open my eyes, the call to prayer from a dozen different mosques picks up, complimenting rather than competing with the church bells, all calling worshippers to drag themselves through the early morning darkness and take to their knees in thanks for another day.

This is my alarm clock. It is way of waking up that lends itself far more to lucid dreaming than alertness, but somehow I manage to drag myself out of bed every morning and go for a run, returning half an hour later with a self-congratulatory air and four new articles of clothing to wash. The girls have already been up for an hour and a half of course, and wrapped in pagnes and winter parkas they go about the Center busily completing their long list of morning chores.  They greet me (far too enthusiastically for the early hour) as I draw water from the pump, and fly ahead of me balancing basins of water on their heads twice the size of the buckets I am carrying. 

The girls and I began planting the nursery for our community garden in November. Here they are replanting our cabbage seedlings. 

I have 30-something little sisters (more keep coming), some of which are at the Center to attend one of Solenzo’s many schools and some of which take classes and learn exclusively at the Center itself. This latter group of about 20 girls are the ones I work with primarily. As goofy and adolescent as they are, they still attack every day with a tireless work ethic that simply baffles me. As a result, their backs are stronger than mine, their biceps bigger, their stamina greater and their recovery times shorter. They can pound corn into the fine powder used to make to and prepare an array of sauces. They can carry 20+ gallons of water on their heads without spilling a drop and break up dry, unyielding earth with heavy pick axes to lay fine seeds, all while manipulating a phone with the other hand. Some lazy afternoons I’ll wake up from a nap to find them huddled together in the central hanger, teasing each in one language or another and manipulating tufts of hair into neat, expertly executed braids and twists. This time is one of the only breaks they get from their duties, which otherwise consume them from about 4 in the morning till past 9 at night. The Center for them is at once a hair salon, a garden, a kitchen, a classroom, a dormitory, a playground, and temporary home that gives them little respite from their duties in their respective villages. 

The girls dance at the the Center's opening mass

Each one of my little sisters has come to the Center for a different reason, but the nuns have a very particular idea about how they will act once they are inside. This became apparent to me when Sister Elizabeth asked me to type up the rules and regulations for the Center. It began with these words, which are intended to exemplify the Center’s values:

Fraternité                                 Travail                                     Discipline

Before going on to state a long list of proper behaviors such as respecting the property of the Center and committing yourself to your duties, the document noted that the goal of the Center was to create an environment for young women that would prepare them for their lives as mothers and wives, emphasizing these values of fraternity, work, and discipline. Fraternity, work, discipline. Each word seemed perfectly inappropriate for me to apply to a teenager. I prodded the nun a little, originally asking if she’d let me change the word ‘fraternité’ to ‘sororité,’ which apparently isn’t even a word in French. But this didn’t bother me as much as the aspirational statement, which stated that the Centre Marie Moreau was intended to prepare young women for their roles as wives and mothers. I see the Center and places like it as golden opportunities to take the marginalized 50% of Burkinabe society and raise them up to aspire to be anything they choose. Instead, the mission statement aspires to teach them nothing more than what they could have learned staying in their villages and not attending school? It is like stumbling upon a stretch of rich, fertile land and then deciding not to grow anything.

Leontine in the garden.

Do not misunderstand me: Being a wife and a mother is no small role to fill. In fact, for many women with or without careers from every corner of the world, it is the most challenging, rewarding and important job they hold. I know that I personally look forward to it myself. However, I have something that these girls are not as fortunate to have, and that is the ability to make autonomous choices about my future based on an extensive and meticulous education. Despite the endless list of domestic skills these girls already possess, many of my little sisters have severe trouble with is reading, writing, speaking French and thinking critically. They struggle to follow directions they are not familiar with and struggle to innovate, problem solve, or be leaders among their peers. These are part of a long list of aptitudes that are largely a pre-requisite for interacting with the world beyond one’s own village, and the relative absence of them in the girls I work with (or at least, they’re reluctance to demonstrate them to me) stems from a multitude of reasons. Only one of these reasons I have come to find, is the fact that many of the girls don’t have past a third grade education level. I have been privileged to take these skills for granted for most of my life, not just because I had access to excellent schooling but also because I had an entire team of adults behind me telling me I could be and do anything I wanted to. Telling me at every stage of my life that I had a choice.

Flavienne and Ginette at opening mass

But in a culture where the man is always the head of the household, always the breadwinner, and women are expected to serve a certain role, where exactly does all of that scholarly critical thinking come in? I have sat with groups of Burkinabe men on multiple occasions and been told that women don’t have their place in politics, that they must always be subservient to their husbands, that they have no right to decide how many children then want to have. I have been told that men have a right to women’s bodies as they choose, and that educating women leads to high divorce rates and moral depravity. I have been told that women already have too many rights, and that no man wants a woman that would argue with her husband or who earns more money than he does. And I have seen, first hand, sixteen-year-old girls leave the Center to get married to much older spouses so that they can start having children before it’s too late. So when I come at then waving all of my Western ideals and telling them to stand up and be confident, I can only thank them for humoring me. 

Monique in the garden.

For a group of girls that will likely grow up to marry and become mothers, what they need is the ability to make their own money to support their family, a way to keep food on the table and clothes clean, and a way to accept a life of never never resting. Reading, writing, speaking French, leading discussions and thinking critically about Burkinabe practices or traditions are not necessarily skills these girls see themselves needing in their immediate future, and it seems the nuns don’t see that they will either. Without high school educations or any kind of equivalency, they are highly unlikely to augment their positions in society such that the more Westernized world of Ouagadougou and Bobo-Dioulasso should concern them, so who am I to tell a group of already disenfranchised young women that I want them to focus on skills they may never use? What they need, effectively, is fraternity, discipline and work.

            If you are like me, however, you have already seen the flaw in this argument: Are we to prepare our children for the world we live in or the world we want to live in? The answer, of course, is both. I’m not just here to bolster what is already being done by adding to the list of artisanal and income generating skills that will help these girls create financially stable lives for themselves. I’m also here to push them a little to look beyond that, to peek over a socially constructed wall that, little by little and with many helping hands, these young women are climbing. If I can become a mentor and a source of support for those of my little sisters who decide they want more choice in their lives, then I need to be ready to do everything possible and culturally appropriate to get them there. So, despite losing out on convincing the nuns to insert sororité into our mission statement, I did get them to agree to add one more word: Creativity. And with those four words nicely framing my goals here at the Center, I sleep a little easier every night, ready to wake up to that strange, four-legged symphony.




If You Eat A Green Mango…

My primary goal for this year was to play more of an integral role of the girls’ time at the Center, so as they began to trickle in I made an effort to introduce myself and make the consistent presence of an excitable Western person a little less intimidating. I saw many new faces but some of the girls recognized me and called me by name, making me grin with how comfortable they were being familiar. As I was helping Sister Elizabeth put together the new schedule for the 2015-2016 school year, I managed to weasel my way into a weekly block with the girls, and when enough of them had arrived I started the first of what I hope will be many group activities: Malaria awareness and prevention through Grass Roots Soccer.*

            The first order of business Wednesday morning at 8am was a pretest of 9 questions to find out what the girls already knew about malaria. These were basic true/false questions including ‘malaria is transmitted by mosquitos, true or false?’ ‘You should go to the clinic if you contract malaria, true of false?’ ‘You can prevent malaria by sleeping under a bed net, true or false?’ The first issue I ran into was the language barrier. A number of girls in the room did not speak French, and try as I might, I could not get anyone to agree to translate. Admittedly, my homemade translation of the English curriculum, I imagine, may have left something to be desired. Additionally, I couldn’t get them excited. They seemed timid, quiet, and unable to quickly follow verbal directions. I couldn’t even get most of them to answer me when I asked them a direct question like ‘what is your name?’ or to follow my directions when I told them to find an empty page in their notebooks and write the date, their name, and the word 'Pre-Test.' Blank stares.  A collective wall they had put up that I was completely unable to tarnish with my enthusiasm.  

After the test, I  brandished the candy I had bought as an incentive so that we could go through the test questions. This instantly made them perk up, and with each question I asked I saw a room full of hands.  In a country where thousands of children and adults die every year from this preventable disease (malaria is by far one of the leading causes of death in Africa as a whole and Burkina especially), you would think a group of teenagers would at least be able to tell you how the disease is contracted. Nope. Few of the questions I had asked were met with the correct response, and I was shocked to find that 18 of the 19 girls in the room believed that malaria was transmitted by eating green mangoes and shea butter. When I brought them outside to continue the line of questioning with some basic games, they were shocked to hear that green mangos and shea butter where not culprit. They were also shocked to hear me tell them that they should not seek help from a traditional healer when diagnosed with malaria. (This is something the curriculum puts emphasis on that is a little awkward to communicate as a Westerner to kids that have trusted in traditional medicine most of their lives).

For the next 90 minutes we talked about mosquitos, transmission, symptoms, prevention and treatment. Each bit of information was permeated by a game, which I then reinforced making them repeat what they had learned. At 10am I had finished in two hours what was supposed to take 45 minutes. The girls were excited and giggly after playing a game where teams stand in a circle with each member holding the edge of a pagne (the would be mosquito net) with a ball (the mosquito) balanced atop it. The goal is throw the ‘mosquito’ into the air and have everyone on the team tuck themselves under the ‘mosquito net’ before the ‘mosquito’ hits the ground. Those that failed ‘got malaria’ and had to run to the clinic (me) to get a high five before continuing the game. After the game, once I had them all seated, we recapped the information: Malaria is transmitted by mosquitos (and only mosquitos). The symptoms are fever, vomiting, diarrhea, body aches, headache, jaundice, coma and death in some cases. I can protect myself from malaria by sleeping under a properly hung, properly cared for insecticide treated net every night. If I contract malaria, I should go straight to the clinic for medicine.

Had I gotten through? Luckily there were three more practices in the curriculum to drive the information home, and although the day had started out slow with many complications, the end result had pulled together nicely. The girls had come out of their shells, become more comfortable with each other and started to speak up a little. If nothing else, it let the girls get to know me, and little by little I am getting to know them.

 

Solenzo Welcomes Me Back

Any of the statements that follow are my own personal opinion and do not reflect the position of the Peace Corps or US Government.

As many of you are already aware, the coup ended in dramatic kaboom ushered in on the fiery wings of justice.  Within a week the RSP’s camp was gently stormed by the Burkinabe Army and General Djendéré and his officers were captured. He apologized for what he assured the public was a ‘waste of time,’ and while he and awaits trail in Ouagadougou, Peace Corps Volunteers and Burkinabe alike breathe a sigh of relief. But with that collective release of air comes the very warranted cacophony of criticism for what the RSP had done. A waste of time, you say? Tell it to the 10 or more people who were killed in the protests. Not a single Burkinabe I have talked to supported Djendéré and his ill-fated coup.

            Looking back, I suppose what was truly amazing to me about the coup was just how much entitlement is showed on the part of the RSP, a phenomenon that is no stranger to this country. Burkina Faso has had more coups that elections in its 55-year life, and it seems that every time a military officer doesn’t get his way he’s entitled to a coup. The Burkinabe resisted Djendéré’s power grab with well-organized organized civil disobedience, and still it took him a solid two weeks to admit defeat. Power is not for those who take it. It is for those who earn it. This is the lesson Burkina Faso taught the world in September. Let’s hope it sticks.

            The end of the RSP’s hissy fit meant the end of Camp Consolidation for us Volunteers, and bleary-eyed and sun burned we all said goodbye and filed into Peace Corps vehicles for the bumpy ride back our sites. The past three weeks for me have been a slow but steady return back to normalcy in Solenzo, which means welcoming the nuns, the girls (and my allergies) back to the Center. It also meant welcoming what I’ve come to think of as my I-couldn’t-go-to-India-so-I-needed-something-to-cuddle puppy. Welcome my new little bandit, ‘Hibou.’

 

Camp Consolidation 2015

Since last I wrote, the situation in Burkina Faso has progressed significantly. Shortly after my last blog post, the Peace Corps decided it was best to consolidate all of the volunteers in a central location. Luckily, this location has a pool, and air conditioning. So, what happens when 90+ nervous people with an average age of 25 are cooped up in a hotel together for going on a week and a half? Let’s just say we’ve broken a lot of bottles.

            Our time here is best described as limbo. Every day brings new news from the capital and every day brings new speculation about whether we’ll be headed back to site soon or rushed across the border to another state. For those of you that are worried, don’t be. The worst thing that has happened to be in the past two weeks is missing out on naptime.

            As we move into week two, the inevitable has begun to occur: Sharing. As Peace Corps Volunteers there is very little we don’t share. From movies and music to food and drinks to towels and tee shirts and of course, illnesses. One by one volunteers are succumbing to whatever bug patient zero brought to our little watering hole, and whether it is stress from the situation or just plain old Burkina Faso, many of us are moving into week two bedridden.

            Despite this unexpected and uncertain situation, we’ve found a way to make lemonade out of lemons. (And if there were actually lemons, I would indeed make some lemonade to sip by the pool). The Peace Corps sent a number of our language teachers down to give us language lessons every morning, and volunteers have been signing up during the day to give sessions in different areas of their expertise including malaria work in Burkina (me!), classroom management, grant writing and gender and development work. People with other skills have been running yoga and dance classes, and large activities such as trivia and talent shows have served to distract us from our uncertain positions. So in general, morale is high.

In addition, I have had the unexpected pleasure of getting to visit my host family from training a couple times since I've been here. Zoro is quiet and tranquil in the rainy season, and seeing the familiar faces of my host mother, father, brothers and sisters was a welcome respite from the stress of consolidation.  The first time I visited I was gifted a chicken and about four pounds of peanuts. The second time I went back it was for Eid, and the other volunteers and I invested in three chickens to gift the family Ziba. They stuffed us full of rice and sauce and grilled mutton before we said goodbye again, and I decided that I could have easily spent my two years of service right there in Zoro.             

So how am I feeling in all of this? I suppose the word that comes to mind is frustrated. I have been doing my best to operate as normal, working on my grant and my report for the Peace Corps and trying to keep up contacts back in Solenzo to make sure the projects I have started to set up don’t fall by the way side. But sometimes it is hard to carry on business as usual when the possibility of evacuation is hanging heavily in the air. The frustration isn’t perpetual, however.  It slips in between dips in the pool and taps me on the shoulder shyly after a third afternoon beer. It reminds me that I missed out on the trip to India I’ve been planning for seven months and that I could be in Solenzo helping to harvest corn with the nuns. However, there is good energy here too, and people at all stages in their service are eager and optimistic about getting back to their projects and friends at site. Send good vibes our way, I don’t think Solenzo has seen quite enough of me yet! 

Don’t worry, it’s just another coup d’etat

If you follow the news, you may have heard already that in the last 48 hours Burkina Faso has gone from a happy, peaceful nation waiting for their first democratic elections in 30 years to the midst of their 7th military coup. What is remarkable about all this is just how quickly it happened. I was on my way to Ouagadougou, all packed and ready to embark on a trip to India that I had been planning for the past 6 months, and I arrived in the capital city without a single hiccup. When I stepped into the transit house, the 12 or so other people already here were abuzz with the news: The military had taken over the government.

Here is a quick recap of the events as of this morning. If you are interested in following this more closely, I recommend France 24 or the BBC. The Times also has a very comprehensive article on the events so far: 

Wednesday, September 16th

·      The Presidential Security Regiment, good friends of the ousted president Blaise Compaore, stormed a cabinet meeting and took interim president Michel Kafando and Prime Minister Isaac Zida hostage, subsequently declaring the ‘corrupt’ interim government dissolved. (As of this morning, they are still in custody but have not been harmed).

·      Security forces also raided and burned a radio station that had a large part in reporting on the popular revolution last fall.

·      Gen. Gilbert Diendéré, Blaise Compaore’s former chief of staff, claimed control of the country while supporters of the transitional regime began amassing for protests in central Ouagadougou

Thursday, September 17th

·      Lt. Col. Mamadou Bamba went on the air declaring that the corrupt interim regime had been toppled that the ‘National Council for Democracy’ had taken control with the promise of peaceful elections soon.

·      Air and land borders were closed and an overnight curfew was imposed

·      In opposition to the military takeover, Chérif Sy, the leader of the National Transition Council, also declared himself president. Burkina Faso now has two different men from two different parties claiming power.

·      Protests continued with the military patrolling the streets firing warning shots to disperse crowds

Friday, September 18th

·      The National Council for Democracy has agreed to talks moderated by presidents Macky Sall of Senegal and Thomas Boni Yayi of Benin

What's happening in Elena's life? Here is a recap of my life since the coup began:

Wednesday, September 16th

·      Elena arrives at the transit house after a long day of travel to discover that a bunch of entitled military brats are having a temper tantrum at the expense of millions of people

·      Elena refuses to consider the notion that her trip to India may be in jeopardy

·      Elena remains in the transit house as ordered by the Peace Corps and surfs the web

Thursday, September 17th

·      Elena throws a temper tantrum when she is informed that the borders are closed and there will be no dream vacation in India today

·      Elena tries desperately to reschedule her trip and engages all ground forces (AKA, the ‘rents) to reschedule her flight

·      Elena enters the acceptance stage and slowly gives in to the madness of cabin fever by initiating an interpretive dance party in the transit house

Friday, September 18th

 ·      Elena makes waffles. 

From our comfortable perch in the transit house we can see smoke in the distance from downtown. 

 

o who is causing all this trouble and why? The Presidential Security Regiment (RSP) is an elite force of about 1300 officers trained, in of all places, in the United States and France. They were closely allied with the former regime, and there have been lingering questions about whether ousted president Blaise Compaore is waiting with baited breath to hop back across the border as soon as his well-trained ruffians have secured the situation here. So far, Gen. Gilbert Diendéré has claimed to have no contact with him. The transitional government threatened to disband the RSP due to claims of shooting innocent protestors in last year’s popular revolution.

            And as you can see from the above timeline, my life isn’t too exciting. I’m reading the same news sources you are and benefitting from the free wifi and electricity in the transit house. The capital is all but shut down and there is still a lot of chaos downtown but we are far from all the excitement. The Peace Corps has ordered a ‘stand fast’ which means that every Peace Corps volunteer has ordered to stay exactly where they are and not move until further notice. 

And the Streets Will Be Lined With Gold…

As an American in Burkina Faso, you find yourself facing a lot of different kinds of harassment and requests. I have found that not even my decrepit, desperate and unshaven Peace Corps look dissuades Burkinabe from approaching me to ask if I can take the back to America or if I can pay for a ticket for them to go. It is very easy for any American to wrap their brain around the absurdity of this request, sometimes asked in earnest and sometimes jokingly. In order to take a Burkinabe to America I would have to marry them, and then, somehow, find a way to pay for two tickets back to the promised land when I can’t even pay for one myself.

But the Burkinabe assume that, as an American citizen, you carry with you blank passports ready to be filled with their names and information, permanent visas and a magical stamp that, when applied to the paperwork you can surely provide to your Burkinabe assailant, will make any customs officer throw open their arms and cry “Welcome to America!” But what is so great about America in the first place? Why does everyone want to go there? Why is it that I get followed in the streets by hopeful Burkinabe that have somehow heard that I can take them home with me? Talking with Burkinabe about this makes me realize that there are a number of misconceptions about the United States, pieces of reality that didn’t make it into the action movies and television shows the Burkinabe watch. I was sitting outside the ministry of education in Solenzo one morning drinking tea with a few teachers when the subject came up.

“So, why don’t you take me to America?” A secondary school teacher asked smirking at me, “I’d like to go there so that I can have lots of money.” After explaining to him that it would be more than impossible to take him to America with me, I challenged him on his assumption. “Do you think that going to America will make you rich?” I asked, “You know, there is great poverty there too. And life is not easy for immigrants.” But I couldn’t convince him. Even when I explained to him that people, especially immigrants, fall through the cracks in America too, that there is racism, that there is even hunger, that the cost of living can be prohibitive and that Americans are not hospitable and kind like the Burkinabe. Somehow he couldn’t get the image out of his mind that he would step of the plane and find work and housing immediately that would allow him to rise through the ranks and become a wealthy citizen. Has this ever happened? Of course. The American dream isn’t a complete fantasy, but for every immigrant that comes with nothing and makes their way to CEO, there are hundreds more that get stuck and lost and find themselves in poverty stricken and violent neighborhoods in a strange land.

So what does this mean to a Burkinabe? The secondary school teacher who I was talking to was not poor by Burkina Faso standards. He and his colleagues are what are called ‘fonctionaires’ or government workers with a stable salary-a relative middle class with enough money to pay for food and housing and school for their children. But for the 80+% of Burkinabe who live off of subsistence farming, being ‘American poor’ is far more desirable that what they have to go through if the rains don’t come. There is a stagnation in that bottom 80%, a place they cannot see beyond because preventable diseases kill 30% of the population every year. Because 60% of children die before reaching their first birthday.  Because life has not awarded them the ability to look further than their next meal. These are realities that most Americans left in the 20th century. Is it fair for me to say to someone whose reality is as such that America would be no better for them? If there is even the possibility of earning a little extra money, why wouldn’t you take it? 

I know my status in the community as an American will always make my relationships with the Burkinabe different than if I were a host country national, but still I  have managed to find some people that I really trust and respect. One such friend, a young Muslim man who just recently passed his high school exams, is a shining example of where hard work and determination can get you. My friend, lets call him Muhammad, is keen on learning English and will often insist we practice when I come over to his family compound to drink tea with him and his brothers. He is well read, a critical thinker, has a great sense of humor, and is very driven, and I find myself comfortable talking to him in a way that escapes me with other Burkinabe. After finally finishing his exams, he is torn between continuing to University or finding a job to support his large Muslim family, being that he is the oldest boy and his father and all three of his father's wives will be looking to him for support.

Muhammad on Ramadan

One evening Muhammad told me a story about a friend of his that played a clever trick on African border patrol. He hopped on a fan bus to go to a soccer match in Angola, and when he arrived he sped out into the city to find work, shrewdly avoiding going back to Burkina Faso. Eventually, he earned enough money to buy his mother and father a house in Angola, and even a car. With the weight of familial responsibility on his shoulders, Muhammad found this story inspiring. He told me that he understood that, if he had someone in America to vouch for him, he could go get a temporary sales visa at the embassy and fly to the US to be received by his American sponsor. Then, he told me, it would be easy to simply go find work and begin to make money for a few years.

My heart dropped when Muhammad expressed his plan to me. Not only did I catch the implication, that he needed an American sponsor (me), but his assumptions were so deeply riddled with inaccuracies that I could hardly fathom what to say. There were two sentiments in me in fierce conflict: the first was anger. I thought Muhammad was my friend, how could he even imply this? Was that all our friendship was to him, a ticket to America? Eventually, when he got bolder, he outright asked me if he could borrow money from my parents! The second was sympathy: How could I blame him? And this is the constant conflict here: the resentment for being seen as nothing more than an opportunity to take advantage of when I came to do so much more, and the realization that this far off fantasy is all some of these people have to hold on to. 

Rainy Season Blues

I hope, dear readers, that you will forgive me for the long pause in my blogging. I have been very busy in the past few months despite the rainy season blues, and I grounded myself in Solenzo for the month of August so as to get some projects rolling. So, what have I been up to for the past two months?

            Solenzo, like every Burkinabe town and village, is dead quiet in the rainy season. As soon as the earth is soft enough to sow, every able-bodied man, woman and child disappears into the fields to cultivate millet, peanuts, cotton, sorghum and corn, among other things. Those that aren’t in the fields are traveling to visit family in other parts of the country or filing into cities to rejoin mothers, fathers and children. What does that mean for our heroine? A soft American who is completely useless in the field and too poor to spend too much time in the city? It means she needs to get creative with passing her time.

Sister Marie and Honorine finish a dyeing project before the remainder of the girls left in July

When the Center had been sowed with peanuts, millet and maize, the nuns one by one took their leave for various necessary voyages, leaving me almost completely alone on the grounds of the Center. At first, being alone was disorienting and a little frightening, but I devoted my time to vigorously tending my new garden, cleaning my house and paying calls to various friends in the community to talk to them about projects I wanted to start. Soon, I fell into a rhythm, and I started to become comfortable in Solenzo in a way I hadn’t before. In addition, I got more bold reaching out to people, and the more they responded the more energized I became.

Solenzo at dusk

At the end of July I found myself in the office of Dr. Ouatarra, the head of the Health District for Solenzo who oversees both clinics and Solenzo’s modest hospital.  I had been wanting to do something with malaria prevention for a while and with the help of a minister from the education department, I had devised a plan to start doing short malaria prevention sensitizations in mosques and churches in Solenzo.  I had drawn a series of visual aids designed to be used with a large group, and I was exited to get started. Within the next two weeks Dr. Ouatarra and I had created a lesson plan, connected with translators and set a date to start. Although I could not enter the mosque to speak, my health worker counterpart, a young Muslim man, would take my images and do the short, 30-minute lesson in the mosque every Friday. I, on the other hand, would be doing the lesson at the clinic in the mornings with pregnant and nursing women.

            The first time I stepped into the shaded outdoor space where about 30 women were waiting with their babies to be seen, my hands shook. I clutched my drawings so hard they crinkled, and when I opened my mouth to begin, all of the French I supposedly knew escaped to someplace far away. Looking back at that first lesson I gave now, I have realized what every teacher and professional trainer knows intuitively: The first few groups are always the guinea pigs. You try different things and they work or they don’t, and that tells you exactly what to do next time. For example, the second time I gave my sensitization, I tried buzzing around like a mosquito in an effort to engage the mothers a little more. Not even a smile. But when I talked about how one could buy a motorcycle with all the money lost on treating preventable cases of malaria (and then proceed to ride an imaginary motorcycle around the room), I get giggles and nods of agreement.

            By the second week of August, I felt I had reached a very good space. I was giving one to two sensitizations a week at both clinics and Dr. Ouatarra and I were talking about a mural and expanding the program further to include the hospital. Mme. Dioma and I had been talking frequently and developed a plan of action for the fall, and I had almost completed an extensive grant to get a garden stared at the Center. I did what I could to help out around the Center, being that there was only one woman there to tend the 0,5 hectares of land, and I got more comfortable spending time with friends in the community. As August rolled to a close, I felt energized to begin again in the fall when the girls came back. Even my garden had a few sprouts in it!

The Center after a good season of rain

Tiny Burkinabe

What does every Westerner who has ever been to Africa have in common? Adorable photos with cute African children, of course. This is a common trope, subject to much admonishment by ‘savvy’ people on the internet who love to get into arguments with strangers. I admit that I have been guilty of both ‘upgrading my Facebook profile picture’ and rolling my eyes at others that have done the same. Not until I got to Burkina Faso did I realize that it’s nearly impossible to take a photograph without being photo bombed by an adorable child. Photographs of children in the developing world have been problematized a-plenty, most famously Kevin Carter’s photograph of a severely malnourished girl being stalked by a vulture. They are used to win awards, start campaigns, solidify people’s impressions of themselves as humanitarians and mobilize raw Western sympathies. So what are the secrets behind those wide-toothed smiles?

 At least in Burkina Faso, children represent a significant and important strata of the population, and their childhoods are very different from those of American children (in most cases). If you are one of the 80 plus percent of Burkinabe children that lives in villages, your mother may have given birth at the local health clinic or at home with the family where a traditionally trained midwife may or may not be present. According to UNICEF, the infant mortality rate in Burkina Faso in 2012 was 66%, and the fertility rate was 5.7 children per mother. If you are one of those beautiful and lucky children that grows into a healthy toddler, you spend most of the first years of your life tacked to your mother’s back in a pagne. Women are the only member of the two part union it takes to make a baby that I have seen taking care of children, whether the baby is theirs or not. The day after a safe delivery, most mothers are up and resuming their roles as wives and anchors of the household with the new baby with an aunt or sister or on her back while she goes about her daily chores. (A new baby is no excuse to rest). Burkinabe children to not wear diapers (a fact which forever escapes me), so potty training tykes run around pantsless and need to be washed a lot. 

Marie Laurent, 5, helps her mother make dolo in Solenzo

Marie Laurent, 5, helps her mother make dolo in Solenzo

Childhoods end when a little brother or sister comes along, especially for girls. As soon as the elder sibling is about four or five they are considered old enough to be responsible for their younger sibling, and the bare bottoms and playing in the dirt are traded for a demanding, squirming baby. Girls as young as 10 become the 24-hour babysitters for their younger siblings, carrying them, feeding them, cleaning them, and removing the poop they are trying to eat from their mouth. In general, children old enough to take care of themselves are delegated tasks and become responsible for helping the family, whether its fetching water doing dishes and laundry, cooking, cleaning, shopping, errand running, vending or anything else mom and dad might need. ‘Petits’ as most PCV’s call them, are always eager to help with anything you might need, and they will literally throw punches in order to have a chance to carry your things.

Adolescent hood for most Burkinabe children can be abysmal. Classrooms are crowded, tests are hard to pass, home life can be complicated and unwanted pregnancy is rampant. The culturally inappropriate and rigid vestiges of the French school system make sure that most children repeat grades multiple times, sometimes until they age out or until more pressing concerns remove them from the classroom. There are a number of success stories, but the majority of young villageois are fighting a system that is impossibly stacked against them.

Zarimatou, 13, pounds maise in Zoro

Zarimatou, 13, pounds maise in Zoro

Despite how hard it is to grow up in this country compared to most children in the developed world, I never cease to be amazed by the resiliency of the kids here. Simply speaking, they’re a tough bunch. Their backs are stronger, their wills are harder and their recovery time shorter (I swear I’ve cried more in country than I have every seen any Burkinabe children cry). I can’t tell you how many times I’ve relied on children to help me resolve issues, translate, learn new skills and open doors into Burkinabe culture and society. I’d love to see each and every one of these tiny Burkinabe receive the same attention, support and coddling I received as a child at the center of my parents’ attention, but the fact of the matter is that childhood is simply considered differently here. It is shorter and rougher. I got to be a kid right through my college career because nothing in my life demanded otherwise. Kids grow up fast because they don’t have a choice.  

My host brothers and sisters in Zoro. Standing in the very back is Leila, 10, who is the primary care taker of her baby sister Nasifa, 2, (standing right in front of her) and also single handedly taught me how to do my laundry. 

My host brothers and sisters in Zoro. Standing in the very back is Leila, 10, who is the primary care taker of her baby sister Nasifa, 2, (standing right in front of her) and also single handedly taught me how to do my laundry. 


Build Another Pyramid

Trigger warning: This one is not for the faint of heart. 

The morning of the 22nd, my Khufu started growling at me whenever I approached him, and when the vet came he cornered him and tied him up on a short cord. It didn’t quite look like rabies yet but who knew? The next two days were pretty painful. Khufu got worse and worse, eventually coming to a point where he was in a constant state of delirium and pain, wandering around my courtyard on his short leash in between violent and terrifying seizures.

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I often ask the Burkinabe about their families, both out of interest and because I love to hear their reaction when I tell them I am an only child.

“How many children in your family?” I asked my fourteen-year-old friend during one of our first conversations.

“We were nine,” he replied, “but many are with God now. My father too.” When I asked Madame Dioma the same question, she replied

“We are eleven.” But then tells me that at least two of her siblings died as children. I got a similar response when I asked a friend if my neighbor’s daughter was her first child. “No,” I am told, “she had others, but they passed.” Every couple of weeks or so I hear about a terrible accident that stole the life of someone’s brother or sister, or the occasional case of a child who died in the night of a mysterious fever. A friend in the health sector here in Burkina called me once to tell me that the baby she had just seen delivered died the next morning.

You’d be hard pressed in this country to find a village-dwelling family that hasn’t lost one or more of their children. Nearly every family I know has had to deal with a dizzying and senseless loss, whether it’s from a preventable ailment or a freak accident. Death in this country is something nearly everyone has been in close contact with. In my manicured middle class United States life, I think I’ve been to one funeral. (Although I did accidently kill my goldfish when I was two when I tried to save it from drowning, and I had two parakeets that died on the same day).

That is why, sitting in my doorway on the morning of the 24th, watching my dog erupt into a violent, delirious barking fit scared me to bits. He writhed around, halfway caught between a seizure and some terrible waking nightmare, and then he stumbled into my compost pit were he twitched and grunted for almost an hour. Just before nine o’clock, he wheezed and died. Thank goodness for the privacy of my courtyard, because I burst into tears. Once I had pulled myself together I approached the body, but I wasn’t prepared for the way the head flopped when I picked him up or the way he became all stiff and hard after about 20 minutes. I wrapped him in a bit of plastic and called the nuns. The girls stood outside the weaving building looking at me somberly. 

“Sister Jean-Marie? Yes, it’s Khufu, he just died. Shall I…shall I burry him here, at the Center? I can dig the hole myself.”

“No!” She told me, “Don’t dig! Women don’t dig graves. And dogs aren’t buried. But because he’s your Khufu, and because we don’t know what he had, we will call someone to bury him for you.”

The young man that came an hour later smirked when I told him he was digging a grave for a dog. He helped me carry Khufu over to the corner of the Center where the hole was dug and he tossed my dog’s body down like a sac of millet. I gritted my teeth.

“Why did you bury him?” a friend asked when I told her the news later that day, “I would have eaten him.” (At least two people told me this). When I went to tell the family from whom I had bought Khufu, the wife declared that she’d give me another puppy in no time. I told her I’d rather wait.

It wasn’t until I truly put Khufu into perspective that I really understood the reaction of the Burkinabe. In a country where modern medicine can’t reach everyone, where food isn’t always sterile and water is often contaminated, the death of a relative, father, mother or child is an ever-looming reality. Watching the life just sputter out of someone, as I had to do with Khufu, isn’t a once in a life-time occurrence for many people here. To grieve for a dog, therefore, is not just silly, it’s insulting on some level. A dead animal is meat for a family of fifteen who, especially with the drought conditions in Solenzo, is likely to be lacking in healthy vitamins anyway. Thank goodness I didn’t go through with planning a puppy funeral.

What I experienced with Khufu is what I imagine many families experience ten fold when they watch a family member suffer and are powerless to help because there is no hospital or they cannot pay the bills. Despite this, many Burkinabe were gracious in recognizing my lack of finesse that day, however bizarre they found my attachment to my pungent, excitable quadruped. My little pharaoh may have no pyramid to mark his grave, but I do believe all dogs go to heaven. Just don’t tell the Burkinabe I said that.



Opening the Doors and Closing Them Once Again

 

As the end of the year rolled around for both schools and the Center, we spent the last weeks of May preparing for the three-day end of year celebration at the Center where the girls would show off what they have done during the year.  As with any good Burkinabe celebration, this one went on longer than you could have imagined, had more food than you thought you could have eaten, and involved more dolo than you should have drank. The whole community came over the three days, and the girls did a performance including a short play and five different dances (which nearly brought me to tears, I was so proud!). The woven pagnes and the soap, the clothes and the embroidered handkerchiefs, all of it was on sale for three days amidst the vats of rice, meat from two (or three) slaughtered pigs, trash cans full of dolo and eardrums full of bad Burkinabe music.

The end of the year was bitter sweet for me. As I teased and chatted with the girls during the celebration, I couldn’t help but wish I had spent more time with them doing other activities. They had really started to get comfortable with me, which was incredible, and I was getting robbed of translating those relationships into real working potential until October when the summer holiday finishes. Luckily, I’ve already got lots of ideas for what to do next year!

 

Harassment

 

Women and men alike face unwanted attention wherever they go. However, the problem of harassment, particularly sexual harassment, has always been more of an issue for women, and ever since puberty it’s been a reality for me. The first time I can remember being really harassed I was 13-years-old and I was walking home from having my hair braided in Harlem, New York. I was about to cross to the street when a man in a shiny yellow car uttered something at me, leaning out of the window of his car. 13-year-old me of course couldn’t hear him, so I stepped closer. He uttered it again, still I couldn’t hear. One more step closer and I was nearly close enough touch the car. “What did you say sir?” I asked.

“You’re gorgeous,” he said looking me up and down, “How old are you?” I leaned back and told him, and that car screeched away so fast all I could see was a shiny yellow blur tearing down 125th street.

 Growing up in New York City, I learned how to deal with what was, for me, a daily occurrence. Despite this every day annoyance, it was mostly just that, an annoyance, with the occasional aggravated offense. But in a city where I know the streets, the culture, and the heartbeat, rarely if ever did I feel unsafe when dealing with this attention. Burkina Faso, however, is another animal.

If you have every traveled in a foreign country, you have probably encountered this dilemma: is the stranger that is approaching me now showing genuine kindness or is there some ulterior motive lurking behind that smile? For women, this dilemma has an added dimension, because misjudging a social interaction can turn from bad to ugly quickly and end up compromising our safety. For me, as a Peace Corps Volunteer and a woman, there is yet another layer added because my job here is to integrate and to talk to people within the community. That is why, when I am alone and approached by a man, I find myself facing an even bigger conundrum:  What are this man’s intentions in talking to me? To get to know me as a volunteer who is here to help the community? To get to know me as an American and exchange our cultures? To get to know me as a woman to peruse romantically?

The first two are Peace Corps A+’s. Yes! Exchange your culture! Tell him about your work! Talk to him about what he thinks his needs for the community are! The last one, depending on your own intentions and desires, is the perfect opportunity to tell him about your gun toting American fiancée (the jealous type), who will indeed be visiting you any day now here in Solenzo. Where’s the ring, he asks? Well, it’s far too expensive and heavy to wear in everyday life.

Your potential suitor may counter this move with yes, but he’s far away, in America, you need someone here, to which you will respond by touting the benefits of fidelity and telling him about all the long walks on the beach you’ve had with this fiancée and how in love you are and how he will, really, be visiting any day. If this doesn’t work (and it won’t), you start talking about nuns. That shuts them up pretty quickly.

As you can see by my tone, many times Burkinabe men are not forcibly serious when they approach you. One of the best techniques is to make a joke out of their advance and keep everyone laughing, at which point you appear neither rude nor stand-offish. But there are times, though luckily, they are not plentiful, when you are not in the mood, and it is not a joke. When the two men that follow you home on their motorcycles are stopped only by the gates of the nunnery you work at, and when the bored military officers won’t leave you alone or stop telling you how en forme you are. Harassment in the Peace Corps is sort of like shooting at a brick wall. The wall is the mental barricade you’ve built to hold everything together while you are trying to adjust to a new culture, new language, new food, new climate, and new job, and that wall is getting pelted with bullets every time someone harasses you, even if it’s harmless. That wall will hold, for a time, but there may come a time when it will crack and incapacitate you.

This happened to me last month. I was feeling particularly vulnerable, perhaps because of the heat or the impending departure of the girls from the center, and I had a few too many instances of men making me feel uncomfortable. Normally, my reaction is to shrug it off, but for whatever reason I couldn’t this time. I ended up drawing back significantly, spending more time in my house, reaching out to people less, and ignoring everyone that called out to me when I was walking around town. It was a terrible feeling, isolating myself like that. It took me a good 12 to 14 days to patch my wall up and get it ready to hold me together again, and I still grew enflamed at every instance of harassment I even bore witness to. At one point, I saw a group of boys jeering at one of the girls from the Center during a dance performance, and I nearly lost it.

Burkina Faso is home to some of the kindest and most welcoming people in the world. Get off a bush taxi in a new city and introduce yourself to a random family and you will find yourself invited to stay the night. But as a New Yorker, I have been primed not to trust everyone that comes my way, and it has been a struggle for me to find a balance between being smart about who I interact with and accepting genuine kindness when it is offered. For every man that has made me feel uncomfortable in this country, there are 10 more that have made me feel welcome, taken care of me, fed me, taught me, and taken valuable time out of their days to talk to me. But as they say, one bad apple can spoil the batch.

In a place like Burkina Faso, where people are still fighting for basic rights and to put food on the table, many disenfranchised groups do not have the opportunity to focus exclusively on social progress. The status of women in Burkina Faso is, in many ways, far behind that of women in the United States, and women are still considered subservient to men. That is why, when I am walking home and three men drinking dolo summon me to them because they want whatever it is they want, I am expected to stop what I am doing and go to them. But women in Burkina Faso also have an incredible amount of social power that is softer and more organic. My Burkinabe mothers and sisters and aunties are always there to prop me up when I’m feeling under, and the more time I spend with the more I understand how to deal with this unwanted attention. 

 

 

How to Beat the Heat

 

Greetingings dear readers, and please forgive me for leaving you hanging for so long. I’ve been baking in the hot Burkinabe sun for the past months and as I write to you I am waiting rather impatiently for the rains to come to Solenzo. They stubbornly refuse, of course, and I am left high and dry as always.

            The weather in Burkina is, as you may imagine, extreme. Temperatures during the dry season (September to March-May) can get up to 108 or 110 degrees in some areas in March and April, while kindly dropping down to the 60’s and 70’s during the wet season (May/June to October/September). When I first arrived in Burkina in January temperatures were moderate to cool, and the early hours of the morning had me snuggling into my sleeping bag for warmth. How far away all that seems now. The final months of May in Solenzo were scorching hot, a heat that can only be described as unfair.

I say unfair because when you wake up in the morning at 5:30 am and you are wrapped in sweaty sheets and your thighs are already sticking together you start to develop a sense of entitlement. Well why shouldn’t I be comfortable? Why shouldn’t I be able to walk from one end of my room to the other without breaking a sweat? Why shouldn’t I be allowed to wear one and only one outfit per day and skip the hourly change of tee shirt? Carbon footprint or no, those final weeks of May in Solenzo had me yearning for an air conditioner and a refrigerator, two things that draw far to much power for my puny solar panel to even dream of.

So how to beat the 108 degree heat in a place where you have no cold water, no ice, no refrigerator, and your solar panel can only handle running a fan for about an hour?

Technique one: The wet pagne

Dunk your pagne in water and wring it out (but not too much). Wrap yourself in said pagne and do nothing for the next three hours that can generate body hear (so, if you can stop yourself from breathing too hard, do so). When the pagne is covered in sweat rather than water, repeat the process.

Technique 2: Don’t leave your house

This technique is rather self-explanatory. The Burkinabe are early risers mostly because it’s nearly impossible to do anything between 10am and 4 pm. Suggestions for what to do during this period include sleep, watch copious amounts of TV, sleep again, peer out your window to make sure everyone else is sleeping, watch more TV. Just don’t move too much.

Technique 3: Bucket bathe

Although this may be the worst of the techniques yet it bares mentioning. Several times during the day, fill your bucket with the nice warm water from you water vat and douse yourself with it. Use plenty of soap, it’s been sweating in places where the sun don’t shine. The relief, however, only lasts for a few moments, because as soon as you stop bucket bathing you are inevitably covered in sweat again. Still, those few moments are so, so sweet.

 

Technique 4: Focus on your dog

No matter how bad of a time you are having, your dog has it worse. Nothing like sporting a fur coat in a desert climate with nothing but the surface area of your tongue to cool you off. Pour some water on the ground and then chase him around with a bucket and sprinkle him 

This message is Khufu approved   

This message is Khufu approved  

 

First Five Weeks in Solenzo

 

I believe that the pillars of friendship lie firmly on two foundations: Food and art. Those of you that know me well will understand how self serving-this definition is-but I nonetheless used both of these things to make friends during my first month in Solenzo. When I first got here, a mutual fear created a seemingly insurmountable space between me and the 52 girls living at the center, and my first week was spent psyching myself up to go outside and then thinking the better of it. Who would willingly venture into a veritable ocean of hormonal activity with nothing but about six words in the local language to keep you afloat? I decided it would be like attempting to traverse the Pacific from Australia to Peru with a pool noodle, and I was still adjusting to the idea of getting getting feet wet.

As you may have guessed, a week of doing nothing inside my tiny house got old really fast. Business in the capital had called Mme. Dioma away for the week and the nuns were mostly too busy to show me around, so I was left to my own devices. I’d like to say that this was the moment that I burst out of my shell and conquered my fear, but this is actually the time that I went completely stir crazy and ran away to the regional capital for the weekend. While I was sitting by the pool drinking a Guinness, I asked myself if this was going to be how it was for me: Every weekend I’d devise an excuse to get away and find myself slirping an overpriced beer at some expat hang out four hours away from where I was supposed to be changing lives and pulling rainbows out of my butt.  Perhaps the Peace Corps was harder than I thought.

Solenzo is a beautiful site full of potential and teeming with need, but its large size makes it harder to build a community. A wise friend of mine (who happens to be teaching in Cameroon with the Peace Corps) told me that my community didn’t need to involve everyone, rather that I could choose who to become close with and build stronger relationships with. I just needed to start somewhere. And when communication fails, there is only one way I knew how to make friends.

When I got back to site I jumped on an idea I had been playing with after successfully sharing some of my Trader Joe’s snacks with the nuns: I made ginger candy. Ginger and sugar (the only two ingredients, recipe courtesy of my mother) were easy to find in Burkina, and although the final result wasn’t exactly worthy of shelf space at a popular hipster grocery store, the taste wasn’t bad at all. I brought little baggies of my spicy creations to the nuns, Mme. Dioma, and even a neighbor. They were met with warm receptions.

Candied ginger. 

Candied ginger. 

Next I focused my attention on winning over the girls by using a technique I had used in Zoro. I pulled a chair up to a small group of them on a Tuesday afternoon and began to sketch. They giggled and teased each other, eager to see what my pencil was doing and slowly (very slowly), warming up to me as I made bad jokes in French and recited the few Djula words I knew. I crept into the weaving building and repeated the technique, attracting a small crowd and a few girls who were less timid. Peevishly they tried to teach me how to embroider hankerchiefs as they had been taught to, and I quickly discovered that the needle and thread (much like driving a stick shift) are not my forte.  They taught me Djula words which I promptly forgot and giggled when I managed to botch even the simplest of sounds. Who cares? Laughter means I’m getting somewhere. 

Germane untangling her loom.

Germane untangling her loom.

Embroidery, at which I am terrible. 

Embroidery, at which I am terrible. 

After a week of all that good integration and a considerable amount of time spent patting myself on the back for my innovation, all 52 of the girls abruptly departed for a two week Easter Vacation. Luckily, Jacqueline was there to save me, the young (and very Catholic) teacher/task master to the girls who has been living at the center since October, 2014. Hailing from Kinshasa, The DRC, Jacqueline is a deeply religious, entirely goofy, upright and excellent to talk to. Her impeccable French and willingness to converse makes her wonderful to spend time with, and I often end up using her as a link between myself and the girls.

The emptiness of the center during Easter Vacations forced me out of its walls. One day I boldly went to sit with my neighbors, who live just outside the center, armed with nothing but watercolors and some Bob Marley tracks on my tiny Burkinabe radio. As I painted them they challenged me with commands in Djula, gently repeating until I understood. Sit down, have some dolo*, draw me next. With my foot in the door I returned to sit with my neighbors several times over the next few weeks. Burkinabe relationships are a lot of work: You have to put in the face time. I became a master at the ‘sit-and-do-nothing-with-the-Burkinabe’ skill and I turned into a creative machine. I made more ginger candy, the uglisest Easter Eggs in the world for Easter, which I gave to the nuns, more drawings and even started carving and giving a way little figurines out of soap. And it got easier. My Djula started getting better. More people started seeking me out and showing me around. And when the girls came back, even they started coming up to me of their own free will. Look at me. Look at me integrate. Peace Corps A+. 

 *Dolo is a very popular alcoholic local drink made from fermenting millet. ‘Dolotoires’ can be found all over Burkinabe villages, serve all day out of calabash shells and play raucous music late into the night (every night.) There are about five within earshot of me. For some images of how dolo is made and a little more info, see my photography blog: Drinking, Dancing and Weaving


Ode to a Bleeding Heart

As Peace Corps volunteers, each one of us has a little bit of a bleeding heart. You know the phenomenon: You see that homeless person begging on the subway and you’re sure he’s going to use that dollar for a cigarette but how could you not give it to him, really? You know those kids begging on the streets of that sprawling third world capital are really part of a mafia-like real-life Slum Dog Millionaire organization and that giving them money only helps to reinforce the problematic system underlying and reinforcing the roots of poverty, but you give them your spare change anyway. Having a bleeding heart is a rather snide way of saying you are easily manipulated by expressions of need and are overly eager to help. There is something of an implication when using this phrase that that your 25 cents, one dollar, or even twenty dollar bill really aren’t doing anything to help the situation at all.

This is a major problem with the way development is done in the world today: Money and resources are thrown at a problem because need is expressed, but a lack of true understanding of the problem causes well-intended help to be waisted, misused or misguided. Water pumps fall into disrepair with no one to fix them. That school that was built becomes vacant because there are no trained teachers or school supplies to fill the classroom. Latrines fall into disrepair and new and innovative farming techniques are not absorbed by the communities they are introduced to. None of this means that these efforts are not noble and worthy. It does however call into question how helpful aid actually is when billions of dollars every year are spent on development in Africa with very little to show for it.

As Peace Corps Volunteers, part of our project here is to combat the forces that make development go wrong. We're supposed to forgo 'charity’ for ‘capacity building.’ Instead of ‘give-aways’ we teach communities how to work with the resources they have to build themselves up. We spend two years learning a language we’ll never speak again and making friends in communities not on any map so that we can understand and respond to the true needs of its individuals. None of this changes the fact that some of us, including myself, are gushing, leaking, incurable and insatiable bleeding hearts. I’ve managed to patch mine up over the years with theory and intellectual hobb-nobbery on why helping others should be done in a more 'enlightened' manor, but none of that seemed to stop me last week when I made a bad bleeding heart decision.

I was sitting with my neighbors after dark drinking dolo, and I had one of my solar lights with me made by Luci Lux brand. This particular solar light is attractive and well designed, and while it is not particularly fancy or expensive it always draws an audience when I bring it out for a midnight stroll. My neighbors were frying fish, so I sat with them and held the light out so they could see. They swooned over it, passing it from hand to hand, excited by the fact that it didn’t need batteries. I looked around the dark courtyard, illuminated only by the occasional fire, and realized that I had an extra solar light that I wasn’t using tucked away in my room. Heavily, and knowing full well that what I was doing was stupid, I went to retrieve it. I brought it back and handed it to one of the children, saying It’s for the whole family. A gift. It immediately spurred a chasing and crying fit among the children, and while the adults seemed grateful I received far less gratitude than entitled requests.

Where’s mine? Another neighbor asked, You’re giving this one to me right? Yet another inquired, gesturing to the one I was holding. You have two of these. I’m taking this one home, said a young friend. The requests kept coming. You know, here we have nothing. Look at America, you have everything. You can have so much money there! You’re going to give me some money so I can start my own dolo business, if I make a profit I’ll pay you back. It is hard to deflect these remarks and requests after I’ve just handed a very valuable trinket to one section of a family whose last name probably comprises 40% of Solenzo. What makes them special? Why do they get the hand-out and others get nothing? If you can just give these things away, why are you being so stingy? Every single one of these is a valid question to be raised. And every single one is a reason I should not have done it. I tried to explain myself: That I was there to help them help themselves. That I was trying. That I had given up two years of my life and left my family and the comforts of home to live in a dusty, land-locked, unfarmiliar country where I had to fetch my own water and face down intestinal worms and malaria just so I could be there with them dammit!

But none of that ‘sacrifice’ means anything to someone who isn’t sure if dinner is coming tonight, and when I leave, this community will be largely as I left it. I’ll have to fight being the meat-buying-clean-clothes-wearing-iphone-owning-solar-panel-purchasing-ticket-to-the-promised-land-guaranteeing-money-tree that I can’t blame a Burkinabe for see in me. My flop with the solar light set me back a few battles in that fight.   

A Tiny (furry) Pharaoh

Here's the most important thing that's happened to me in the last two weeks: 

Meet Khufu, my tiny, fuzzy, entirely unterrifying guard dog, prime enemy #1: My broom.  I became Khufu's mom about two weeks ago when I told my neighbor that I wanted a puppy (they're all the rage in the Peace Corps community). She walked me over to a friend's house and produced this skinny, sleepy hound for which I was fiercely overcharged.

I named him 'Khufu' after an Egyptian Pharaoh, which has the added benefit of being very easy for the Burkinabe to pronounce and giving him something to aspire to. He's energetic, adorable, and follows me everywhere. The first rule of having a dog in this country is don't get too attached. Here in Burkina, dogs are not the cuddly bundles of joy that are allowed to wear booties in the winter and sleep in your bed. They are outside animals, rarely washed, never petted, occasionally fed, and often eaten if they exhaust their usefulness. Many a Peace Corps Volunteer has come home to find  that their dog has been killed in their absence, especially if the dog's behavior isn't impeccable. Dogs are kicked, hit, beaten, starved, and left to roam, all of which would land you in jail in the United States.

As a dog-loving American, the very fact that I pet Khufu is considered strange to the Burkinabe. I knew when I got a dog that I would have to find a balance between the Burkinabe way of owning a dog and the American way. Khufu sleeps outside, is fed leftovers for breakfast and dinner, gets a flick on the nose when he misbehaves, and is not allowed to follow me wherever he pleases. (I'm still struggling with that one). At the same time, he's well fed and clean and gets plenty of attention from me when the Burkinabe aren't looking. So, ladies and gentlemen, let's hope my new companion is here to stay. 

P.S.- Khufu is now accepting all donations of dog treats and chew toys on so he doesn't eat mommy's feet. 

Khufu and me in the courtyard of my house.

Khufu and me in the courtyard of my house.


The Cost of Being Human

Let me take you through a typical day chez Elèna in my comfortable New York home. I wake up with the alarm and unplug my phone from where is has been charging, turn on my overhead light and clunk into the bathroom (as you may have guessed so far, I'm not a morning person). In the bathroom I stare at my ugly morning mug for a few minutes before plucking my electric toothbrush from its stand, turning on the faucet and proceeding to numbly brush my teeth. Then it's shower time. 

Getting into the shower is nothing short of a religious experience for me. I stand underneath the warm spray for a good 15 minutes sometimes, often having to turn the faucet to cold to force myself out. All of the grime goes down the drain into an abyss that I, as a modern city dweller, don't have to care about ever. 

Now for my favorite part off the morning: Coffee. Maybe this week it's from Honduras, or Ethiopia. That roast from Brazil was sub par, so the next time I go to Trader Joe's I'll have to choose from on of the many other selections. Preground? Never, it diminishes the freshness. Turn on the stove, retrieve fresh, cold milk from the refrigerator, a sprinkle of cinammon and voilà, I'm in Pairs. 

Breakfast: Eggs? Toast? Fruit? The options are endless, I'll just raid the fridge for whatever exotic delicacy my mother has brought home from Zabars. After I finish my plate I can dump the remains into the trash can and take the trash downstairs so that it can be delivered where? Don't know, don't care.  

Laundry: I drag my laundry bin to the kitchen and complete the magical ritual: Laundry in the machine, soap, lid, dial, done. Takes me about 30 seconds. Where does the water come from and where does it go? Don't know, don't care. 

Wow, all that coffee made me have to pee! Off to the toilet. Zoom flush!  Where does it go? Don't know, don't care.

Lunch time. How about a salad and pasta? No olive oil? No problem! A quick trip to west side market will fix that. Ohh, pomegranates ... Those aren't in season in April, are they? They're going in the salad anyway! I'll make a little extra pasta and stick it in the fridge for tomorrow, or maybe a few days from now. 

I think by now you get the idea. I and millions like me pass through our days with a beautiful sense of worldly cleanliness. Our waste goes down the drain, our garbage goes far far away where we don't have to see it ever again, and where that came from there is always more. Our houses are sealed, our air conditioners are on, our phones are plugged in and we float through our days handing off the cost of being human to more and more remote  and abstract places. We don't have to know, we don't have to care.  

All this may make you think, like I did, that being human in today's world doesn't cost too much. But it does. In fact it costs a whole lot more than I realized. My house currently has no electricity and no running water. I have no refrigerator, no fan to combat the 100+ degree heat and no flushing toilet or shower to wash away the day's nastiness. I have no sink to wash my dishes and no machine to clean my laundry. Every ounce of water I consume I carry. (Okay, well, I  try to carry, but every time anyone sees me headed to the well they take my buckets away from me and resume the responsibility themselves.) It takes three young women with three 15 liter buckets three trips each back and forth from the well (where the process of pumping water is really quite labor intensive) to my house to fill my two 60 liter bariques full of water that I use for dishes, bathing, drinking, flushing the toilet and doing laundry. This means that I literally have to deal with my own shit.  The barikes  last me about 3 days, and that is with heavy conservation of every drop. That puts me at about 40 liters a day. As the girls leave the center this week for Easter vacation, I am dreading the work of pumping and carrying every single bucket myslef. Every drop of water is part of what I cost this earth as a human being. 

Having no power also means I engage in another type of conservation: energy conservation.  If I want to charge something I have only to walk over to the church (which usually has power) and I can plug in one device at a time and leave it there while I go about my day. The logistics of this wayward march where I cart my heathen self and all my superfluous worldly possessions to the massive Catholic house of worship to be recharged under the watchful eye of Jesus means that I have to be very vigilant about the power I do  use. Especially when the nuns travel for days at a time. My computer rarely gets turned on. My phone goes off when it isn't being used. I am strict about charging my solar lights, rotating their positions every three hours for maximum sunlight. I only use my devices when the moment truly calls for it. Every electron now has value to me. Every ounce of current is part of what it costs this earth to have me here. 

This brings me to my next point: food. There are only a few absolute rules in Burkina: 1) You don't wipe with your right hand and 2) You don't waste food. I don't have to tell you that Americans are really bad at #2. Not wasting food is made hugely more manageable of course with a refrigerator and containers that seal so you can seal away anything you don't eat and buy groceries for a whole week. Sadly, sealing containers and an ice box are two things I lack in this country. I use what is called a canary  to keep water and food cool, a kind of large ceramic jar that actually leaks everywhere when I put water in it because the clay is so porous the water soaks through. (This also means I loose about 2 precious liters of drinking water a day). My food spoils swiftly and faithfully in this heat despite my best efforts, which means I have to cook exactly the right amount for each meal. My market has a steady supply of about four vegetables: eggplant, onions, cabbage, tomatoes and... Garlic. If you look hard you can sometimes find squash and miscellaneous leaves off of some tree that are as close as I've gotten here to spinach. The rate at which my food spoils sends me to the market nearly every day. Lucky for me it isn't too far. But because of the effort it takes to retrieve and store food, every tomato I drop, every grain of rice that gets stuck to the bottom of the pan, every clove of garlic that I burn takes on new meaning for me. That tomato, that grain of rice, that clove of garlic- all of it adds to the pile of what it costs the good earth to provide for me as a human being. It doesn't matter how burned that rice is. I'm eating it.  

Most vexingly, what is to be done about trash? Try this at home: remove all the your trash cans from your house and notice, each day, just how much trash you generate. Having no where to put it makes your human cost in waste starkly apparent. And I won't lie folks, it's a little scary. I have two trash cans in my house, one in each room, and I am constantly fighting to keep insects out of them both. Every couple of days I collect my waste, bag it up, however disgusting, and walk it over to the large bin where everything gets incinerated, adding, no doubt, to holes in the ozone. Every harmful particle that gets created when the hair that has collected in my drain goes up in flames-all of that is part of what it costs the ozone to have me inhabit this earth. 

Being here I have been smacked in the face by all my inefficiencies, all the things I take for granted, all of the skills I never learned because there was a machine for it ( you should see the Burkinabe laugh when I try to wash my own laundry. Suddenly every spec of dust I get out of my tee shirt is a huge victory). How about you? What is your human cost? How much water, electricity and waste does it take to sustain your existence on earth? I imagine that, like me, you won't like the answer. 

The compound on which I live is looking into getting electricity and maybe even running water soon. That will make things much easier for me, of course, but also cause me to forget what it costs to be human. For now at least, I'm glad I'm learning. 

 

 

 

 

The End of Training

 

According to the words I pronounced during the swearing in ceremony, I am now bound to protect the United States Constitution against terrorists. Don’t worry, I’m on it.

The last week has been nothing short of a whirlwind of formalities meaningful and otherwise. The heaviest of these events of course was saying goodbye to my host family in Zoro, but this was preceded by a slew of ‘final examinations’ including language tests, presentations, essays, trainings and personal interviews. Training rolled to a slow and grueling close, and by the end we trainees were burdened by exhaustion, boredom, and the inevitable battered egos that come with a week of scrutiny by higher-ups.  

All of it had left me emotionally exhausted and completely unprepared for the last two days I had to spend with the family that has fed me, housed me, taught me, teased me and cared for me for the past two months. On Saturday morning, the day before we left for Ouaga, I woke up early and set about packing. My host mother helped me with my laundry and and stuffing things into my bag, saying periodically “Ma fille va laisser sa maman!” My daughter is going to leave her mother!

At three that afternoon (Burkina time, so more like 4:30), I finished packing my bags and headed out to the mango grove behind the mosque. Most of the other stagiaires living in Zoro were already there, and steadily the grove began to fill up with Peace Corps staff, children, animals, the elder Burkinabe men of the community and, finally, women.

Sexism exists everywhere in Burkina, especially in villages, but this ceremony provided a few prime examples of how low women’s status in the community is. The men occupied the inner circle seated on plastic chairs and looking stoic and important. The children, ever-present and always moving, rolled in the dust around the trees and found little gaps between their fathers knees so that they could see the goings-on. The women, arriving last, took their place about 15 feet outside of the circle and collected themselves under a large tree.

The ceremony began with speeches by the Peace Corps staff thanking the chief, praising the chief, honoring the chief, and compelling the chief, who is the sole person making the decision as to whether or not the villages will continue to accept Peace Corps trainees. The male heads of family nodded with each appraisal. My host father was no where to be seen, but presently my host mother peevishly snuck in during one of the speeches and, bless her soul, took a plastic chair for herself close to the men.

When the Peace Corps staff had finished their speeches they turned and asked us, the trainees, to say a few words. Oh… were we supposed to prepare something for this? Were we supposed to… well, you see we didn’t… I looked at my fellow trainees expecting the solidarity of confused and slightly amused looks but I was taken aback when I saw ten pairs of eyes staring at me expectantly. Damn you people. As the designated ‘chef du village,’ a mostly meaningless title that meant I was the point person for the trainees in the village, the other trainees took great joy in teasing me with necessary responsibilities and formalities, such as this one.

I chuckled as I stood up and spread my hands to address the small crowd. I thanked the families for their acceptance of us as strangers in their homes who, coming in, didn’t know the difference between to and rice (this got a chuckle from the Burkinabe). I tried to express our appreciation for their kindness, their acceptance of our strange habits, and their unwavering tolerance of our alien ways. I sat down and thought about what I had said. Yes, we are veritably aliens. We wash our clothes differently, carry our water differently, eat our food differently, listen to different music and draw conclusions from fundamentally different values.  Hell, we even shit differently. The more I think about it the more our cultures diverge.

When the ceremony was over and we had all come up to give our host families certificates (the Burkinabe love certificates), several women brought huge vats of food for us all to share. Here’s the pecking order: The Americans, the older men, the older boys, the women and finally the little ones. The fifteen or so pounds of rice and chicken was gone in 30 minutes.

Then, as I had made my host mother promise, we started a dance circle. The women clapped and teased and sang, pulling us into the circle to try the traditional dance with each of them. They applauded us despite the fact that our renditions of their ethnic dance resembled freshly caught halibut fighting for their lives on the slippery deck of a fishing boat.

“Leila”

The next morning I was securing the last of my bags and various family members were drifting sadly in and out of my room when I heard the familiar “ko ko ko” that indicated the arrival of an important visitor. My host father, who never enters my house, stood outside waiting for me to greet him. Ziba Youssef is the father of over twenty children and the husband of four women. During my stay he treated me like one of the many women under his responsibility, doling out ridiculous curfews when I would go to visit friends in other families and needing to give approval before I took any action that wasn’t of a personal nature. But he has a sense of humor, and his tone with me was always soft and nurturing. He plays with the children and teases his wives, even indulging me when I engage in futile negations over my 9pm curfew. Personally, I fight between the part of me that resents him for not letting my host mother use the solar light I gifted the family and the part of me that sees a good husband, an attentive father and an essential pillar of this family’s structure.

 When we had exchanged the necessary greetings my host father reached out and took my hand. “Leila,” he said, his eyes somber, “Je ne peux-je ne sais pas…” (his French is very limited). He righted himself and instead spoke a few words to me in Nuni, squeezing my hand gently. Then he nodded and slowly sauntered away. I didn’t need to understand what he said to know that he was grateful to me for the role I had played in his family.

I presented my gifts to my host family as they lay reclined under their hangar: two dish towels embroidered with scenes from new york city, two good-quality shopping bags, two multi-tool devices, some photographs I had taken during our time together and, for good measure, another solar lantern so that my host mother could cook at night. I had also bought Ousman a pair of new shoes at the market when the loss of his own pair prevented him from going to school. Finally, I had candy for the children. I felt like Santa Clause as I paraded around the various family compounds finding all of the children who had run to greet me and unburden me when I arrived home and fought for a chance to be tossed up in the air when I was in a particularly good mood. I knew them all by name and made sure each one received a piece.

As the women and children followed me back into my compound to help me take all of my things to the designated spot where the Peace Corps would pick them up, I finally got a chance to say goodbye to my host mother. When I approached her she looked at me and offered her hand for a half-hearted hand-shake, then she turned and walked back to the fire. This broke my heart. Later, one of the other trainees said they saw her crying.  

There are a lot of things I will miss about Zoro. I will miss teasing my feisty host sister and I will miss the call to prayer. I will miss sitting with my host mother as she prepares dinner and I will miss my host grandmother complaining when I don’t greet her properly. I will miss my host mother calling out in the morning “Leila, tu laves pas?” and responding as always, “Oui mamman, j’arrive!” I will miss the kids, so much. I will miss their character and their childishness and their unexpected maturity. I will miss them rushing into my room when I open the door to be the first to depose whatever they had insisted I let them carry for me. I will miss warm bucket baths (I’m way too lazy to boil my own water at site), and I will miss the mystery of what I will have for dinner. I will miss the impromptu dance parties and, in some way, I will even miss being laughed at (which happened a lot). I felt genuinely integrated with my family in Zoro, and it wasn’t an easy feat. How on earth am I going to start the whole process over again in Solenzo?

 

 

 

 

 

 

Home Sweet Home

We walked in relative darkness along a dusty road for no more than 5 minutes before we came to a metal gate. When it opened, I couldn’t see anything, and the sisters and Mme. Dioma led me (still with all my luggage) to a large, dimly lit building to our left. This was the refectory, and inside still eating, were 52 adolescent girls, who stopped everything they were doing and stared right at me as soon as I walked in. Yes, I could smell the hormones. It was like your worst nightmare in high school. I had to look down to double check that I wasn’t naked. Even though I was fully clothed, it did nothing to stop my face from heating up. I was smelly, dirty, disoriented, and now I was on display. In front of teenagers. Who planned this, exactly?

A few of the girls set up a table and some chairs for us at the front of the room, and gradually they all went back to their dinners. Another nun, sister Jean Marie, petered slowly into the room and introduced herself to me. I sat stiffly in my seat until Sister Elizabeth got up from her chair and called the room to attention. In French, she pronounced:

“Did anyone notice that we have a guest here today?” The girls nodded tentatively. “Would anyone like to ask her who she is?” The room was silent. That’s fine, I prefer anonymity anyway. It adds to my air of mystery. Finally, one girl stood up and shyly asked my name. I took a deep breath and introduced myself in practiced, clear French. (I had plenty of time to rehearse on the 3 hour bush taxi). There was a rumble in the room and sister Elisabeth asked if anyone had understood what I said. Silence. Yes, it did do wonders to boost my confidence.

Sister Jean Marie stood up and called the girls to attention again. “You all have something prepared for our guest don’t you?” She called out. “One…two…three!" The room broke into a harmonized chorus of “Soyez bien venue!” including a riveting grand finale that involved the first actual drum that I have seen in this country. 

When the excitement of my arrival finally wore down, I was allowed to go to my house to rest. It was about 9:45 (way past my bedtime), and one of the girls led me through the dark compound to a tiny courtyard that was attached to one of the girls’ dorms. The courtyard had a wall about waist-high and a small shaded area close to the entrance. There were two doors: one for my bedroom and one for my kitchen, not attached from the inside. The bedroom, where I spent most of my time during the visit, was pleasantly furnished with a bed, desk, and a cabinet for clothes, and housed both a bathroom and washroom. There is no running water or electricity in my house and a thin door separates me and about 25 adolescent girls. I went ahead and moved my desk in front of that door. I don’t think I’ll be opening it any time soon.

The next couple of days at site were a true test of my patience and language skills. Mme. Dioma and the nuns were convinced that I needed to rest most of the day, so I was largely left to my own devices for about 8 hours every day. Meanwhile, since I was living on the grounds of the center, I watched the girls go about their daily chores: Cooking three meals a day, cleaning, pumping water, attending various classes in French and Djula (one of the more widely spoken local languages) and a number of income-generating activities including: Liquid and solid soap-making, tailoring, animal husbandry, some modest gardening, and most importantly, weaving traditional pagnes (colorful, patterned pieces of cloth worn throughout West Africa).

When the novelty of FINALLY being alone for a few hours wore down, I began to get antsy, and I couldn’t figure out how to insert myself into the daily activities of the center. I walked outside and did a detailed drawing of the center. Then I went back in my house. I walked outside and watched the girls weave. Then I walked back in my house. I walked outside and pumped some water for laundry. Then I walked back into my house. Then I walked outside of my house. And then back inside. I had the impression that this routine was going to get very boring very soon.

In the evening Mme Dioma came and picked me up in a barely running, tiny red car to introduce me to the who’s who in Solenzo: The Police, the Gendarmes, the Commissioner, the Minister of Education and a host of other important people whose names and titles I forgot as soon as they told me. It was an odd contrast: Coming from a community of women to be introduced to the all-male staffs of various government functions in Solenzo. Mme. Dioma seemed to be the only woman among them.

 Amassing for Mass

The next afternoon, after a full day of stepping in and out my house and a short walk around Solenzo, Mme Dioma came to get me and asked me if I wanted to “see how we worship.” I appreciated the way she asked the question: She had already asked me my faith and I had told her that I considered myself “spiritual,” and left it at that. She didn’t pry, she didn’t proselytize, she just nodded and moved on. When she invited me to church there wasn’t a hint of self-righteousness in her tone, and I felt honored to share in a piece of her life she considered very important.

As the sun set, we collected in the churchyard. Probably 200 people and the pastor began reading from the bible in French accompanied by two people who were reading passages in Djula. After each passage the entire group would slowly migrate to a new location about 20 feet away from the previous one, so that we were doing a slow clockwork around the actual church. Excuse me--does anyone realize that there is a perfectly good house of worship right there? Am I the only one that sees it, or does it smell or something? It took me about four location changes to realize that we were doing the stages of the cross, each one drawn and tacked up to a tree outside the church. Jesus falls, then gets up, falls again, and is helped to his feet by John and Mary etc…etc (please don’t quote me on accuracy here).  

The Church Yard in Solenzo. 

The Church Yard in Solenzo. 

Call me a romantic but I have to find significance in everything. As we made our slow rotation I thought about how much I expected to struggle in the next two years, and how I hoped that I could, like Jesus, get up every time. Hopefully there is a happier ending for me than there was for the Son of God.

When church was over Mme. Dioma took me to her house to treat me to dinner. Again she treated me better than I felt I deserved. She heard I liked ginger juice, so she ordered some specially made for me and had it brought before dinner. She heard I liked peanut butter, so she had her daughter prepare a special peanut sauce for me. She heard I liked salad, so guess what the first course was? I went to bed feeling spoiled.

I awoke the next morning and packed, ready for my departure that day to visit the regional capital. I was wondering what I was going to have for breakfast, but as soon as I walked outside of my house there was Mme. Dioma, seated comfortably on a chair outside my courtyard with a little charcoal stove boiling water for coffee. She had brought me galletes, beignets made from pounded rice, and they were still hot. We shared a lovely breakfast together, chatted and laughed, and at the end I said, “I don’t know how to thank you enough for how good you have been to me.”

“There is no need,” she told me, “Here in Africa, it’s family.” This statement struck me. What she said fully sums up a huge part of this country: All of my deeply engrained ideas about give and take, merit, deservedness and even time don’t compute here. In Burkina Faso you give. There is a joy in it. There is a beauty in it. You don’t demand something anything in return. I’ll have to pay it forward. 

 


Mme. Dioma

Where to begin, dear readers? When last I left you, I was in the process of becoming a devout Muslim, so it will perplex many of you to learn that I have abruptly changed course in deciding to try Catholicism on for size. Pull out your Bibles, friends, and pray that mass doesn’t last longer than two hours this time.

Just as we Trainees were coming to the end of our collective rope, forgetting tenses in language class, throwing up to every night, falling off our bikes en route to the garden and missing the latrine hole, a respite came: Site Visit! We are the first stage to visit our own sites during training, and we were told to prepare for a one-week trip including a three day workshop with our respective counterparts in Ouaga. We over packed our bags and hastily bid our host families goodbye before exhaustively pedaling to the training center and boarding a air conditioned bus. Air conditioning? In Burkina Faso? Oh, how you spoil us, Peace Corps.

When we arrived in Ouagadougou back at the modest compound where we had stayed our first week in country, the contrast in people’s attitudes towards our lodging was stark. Look! There’s a toilet here! And it flushes! Showers? With water? And…ceiling fans? Again, we felt spoiled, caught between missing our host families and coveting the seemingly never ending supply of toilet paper in our temporary home. Amenities that seemed rustic at best when we had arrived in country suddenly felt like luxuries. Horray for integration.

The morning the counterpart workshops began we filed sleepily into a familiar classroom with about 40 Burkinabe who had come from all over the country. Next step: Peace Corps speed dating. We were told to go and find our counterpart and sit with them. I whipped my head around, determined to avoid what was sure to be an awkward situation, but before I had so much as forgotten how to say hello in French I felt a gentle hand on my arm, and Madam Monica Dioma gave me a wide, beautiful smile.

Madam Monica Dioma

Over the next couple of days in Ouga I got to know this woman very well. Mme. Dioma is the eldest child of eleven and hails from the west of Burkina near Mali. She herself has five children (six if you count me), four girls and a boy between the ages of 20 and 32. She is a devout Catholic and missed taking her vows only because her husband swept her off her feet at the tender age of 20. As well as working with the nuns in Solenzo (my site), Mme. Dioma has devoted her life to fighting for women’s rights in West Africa, attending trainings, conferences, and holding classes for young women on the subject of women’s empowerment. She is truly is formidable woman. 

Spitting Distance from Mali

The name of my site is Solenzo. It is a western city close to the border of Mali about 8 hours and two modes of transport away from Ouaga. When I say city, I hope you aren’t imagining skyscrapers and reliable electricity, because Solenzo has neither of those things. It has a population of about 12,000, a smattering of Catholic, Protestant, Muslim and Animist inhabitants all living in harmony under one, dusty, sweltering sky.  

I will be working with an organization run by four nuns called the Centre de Formation Feminin which has a small compound housing around 50 girls who are not in traditional schools. Although my role there is not yet crystal clear, it looks like I will be working with the girls to develop activities for petit commerce so that they have an alternative plan if they don’t go to university. Mme. Dioma has been working with the Center for decades and is very good friends with the nuns. I am lucky to have her as a counterpart because, while she is well versed in how the Center works, she also has her hands in multiple other projects in the community and is ready to connect me with other organizations.

The morning of February 18th, Ash Wednesday, I had narrowly avoided a 6am mass with Mme. Dioma and was waiting to depart for Solenzo. Something you have to understand about being here, no matter how good my French is, I am always only about 70% certain about what’s going on. Part of that is cultural, and part of it is about what gets lost in translation. The point is, I wasn’t sure what time we were leaving or, for that matter, where to find my lovely counterpart. But for the first of many times during that trip, Mme Dioma compensated for my lack of cultural (and linguistic) fluency, finding me with little trouble and (as always) with a smile to explain to me in slow, clear French exactly how our trip was going to unfold: After breakfast her brother would drive us the bus station where we would board a bus to Dedougou, the regional capital in the West, and then a bush taxi all the way to Solenzo. One of Mme Dioma’s daughters would treat us to lunch in Dedougou. It all sound perfect to me. After some Nescafe and stale bread, we were off.  

When we arrived at the bus station, two men descended upon me and rid me of my backpack and my bicycle, which I was require to carry to site with me. They quickly butchered my bike by taking off both wheels and handing me various parts I didn’t know what to do with, then preceded to tell me that they couldn’t fit the bike on the bus. Before I could argue Mme Dioma ushered me onto the bus, assuring me it would follow on the next bus from Ouaga, and I have to say I wasn’t sad to leave the bag of bolts behind.

When we arrived in Dedougou Mme Dioma’s daughter met us at the bus station and walked us to her house a few minutes away. Her lodging was something of a mélange of village and city life:  a large courtyard where all the cooking was done over a fire, an outdoor bathroom and shower and a sturdy, multi-roomed structure that was well furnished and even had electricity. Mme Dioma had informed her daughter that I liked fish, so she had grilled two large aquatic morsels with chopped vegetables in a mayonnaise sauce. All for me. And I’m not ashamed to admit that I ate them both.

Not an hour later we were at the side of the road again, and a rickety, dirty, fully occupied bush taxi pulled up to take us to Solenzo. I climbed over mommies, couples, sleeping men and young children to find a spot meant for one that would eventually accommodate three. I had made certain not to drink any water before this trip. The last thing I wanted to have to pee on a bush taxi. We women are not equipped with the machinery to discreetly urinate on long trips. The logistics are much more complicated.

A bush taxi headed for Solenzo. 

A bush taxi headed for Solenzo. 

We arrived in Solenzo at around 6pm, about 10 solid hours of travel in total. The first thing that had to happen of course, was church. Mme Dioma led me to the large, beautiful structure not far from the bus station where I waited outside for about an hour and a half for mass to finish. As I waited, the sun set, and I quickly realized that there were a lot more mosquitos in the West that in Leo. As mass ended, there was a mass exodus as the church emptied out, and I was approached by two nuns: Sister Agnes and Sister Elizabeth. They introduced themselves to me and then told me to gather my things.

“Are you ready to go to the Center?” Mme Dioma asked me. You mean, am I ready to see where I am going to be working and living for the next two years? …That’s a difficult question to answer… Can I phone a friend? 

Solenzo at dusk

Solenzo at dusk

A Trip to the Mosque

Despite having studied Islam and despite having studied in a Muslim country for 4 months, I have only really been on the inside of a mosque once. It was a field trip to Casablanca, an otherwise uninspiring city in Morocco, where we were given just enough time to become completely stupefied by the colossal House of God. I have been in mighty cathedrals, awe-inspiring temples and breath-taking churches around the world, and every time I step into a house of worship I find myself more focused on the majesty of humanity than on the power of God. But neither a mosque, nor a synagogue nor a temple need be finely decorated or daringly built to perform its function.

This is the plight of the little mosque not far from my host family’s house, a simple, dusty box about a story high with a tall--well sure, let’s call it a minaret--modestly competing with the mango trees that surround it. Every morning around 4:30 the call to prayer wakes me with such volume it is as though Allah himself is sitting with me under my mosquito net. It is not as melodical as what I have heard in the Arab world, but the Imam holds his own with his little megaphone.  I see my host father perform his abulations many times during the day and hiking off to the mosque, often followed by older women wrapped in sparkling hijabs.

Once, when I was drawing, my host father asked to flip through my notebook and found a short poem I had written in Arabic. “Dieu merci que to sait ca!” He exclaimed, “On va aller a la mosque!” This is the not the first time I had been invited to pray at the mosque. My family has confused my interest in Arabic for piety, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to sidestep a little prayer at some near point in the future.

The moment came last Wednesday when my host sister and brother, Niamatou and Ousman, were preparing to go to the mosque and invited me to join. They led me over to the section of the courtyard where my host father usually performs abulations and Niamatou began to wash. “Ta tete!” she said pointing at my head, then pointed at hers, which was wrapped. I disappeared into my room and returned with a scarf, which I wrapped around my naked cornrows to present myself anew to the 13-year-olds. Pleased, Niamatou told me to sit, and then both children proceeded to show me how to wash myself: Hands and feet three times, mouth three times, inside the nostrils three times, the face three times and the head once. They giggled at how awkwardly I handled it, what with my gimp thumb and lack of expertise with regards to blowing water out of my nostrils.

Zalisa demonstrates abulations with with a plastic teapot used for washing all over Burkina. 

I followed them down the path towards the mosque and Ousman broke step with us to enter on the men’s side. Niamatou led me to the women’s entrance where we discarded our shoes and came to stand on a stiff mat at the back of a small, divided room. There were only a few other women there with us, and the sheet that separated us from the men was thin and poorly hung, begging for a curious child to peek around to the other side. I could hear the imam’s voice mumbling in muffled but clean Arabic, and there was just enough light for me to see Niamatou’s bare feet beside me and the sequins on the hijabs of the women in from of us.

I knew the basics, but for me, this was a game of imitation. I bent when the other women bent, knelt when the other women knelt and bowed when they bowed. Up, down, up down. The worshippers were responding to some queues in the imam’s incantations that I wasn’t privy to. At one point I nearly fell over, and Niamatou, bless her soul, could not stop herself from giggling uncontrollably. At another point I stood up too fast and Niamatou grabbed my arm and yanked me down to the floor. Woops.

 I have never been one for prayer, but with the hum of the imam’s voice, the cool, barely lit room and the slow up/down of the ritual, I found myself very relaxed. When it was finally over, about half an hour, I followed Niamatou out of the mosque to greet the five or so older women who had just finished praying. I took each of their hands and dispensed practiced greetings, mimicking the way they touched their faces after taking my hand. Presently, Niamatou eagerly steered my back down the path to the compound and as we walked a fat, orange harvest moon climbed up over the village. I felt very at peace.

The Mosque